Monday, October 31, 2011
Feeling so cold
Today weather is damn cold ar x.x Angry die cause today went for lunch and is RAINING!!! Thought take umbrella over to Domino pizza then end up no rain ._. But consider God still quite dote me ar LOL!! >.< On saturday nitex was so damn busy due to the tutu iphone 4s ar.. After a tiring day, baby came down which jack and alabu. Thought only they two, end up another two more come down which i don't even know is who. =.=...While eating porridge at baby daddy shop, he still can take out facebook stuff and quarrel with me. Is like WTF can! It seriously spoilt my day. Quarrel till he say i don't give him respect lol..Seriously speaking, i admit that i don't respect him as my attitude is like that and towards boyfriend my attitude more suck! I don't know how to tell him. Cause if i tell him, i want my freedom then is no care at all! totally suck. Why does i first time felt that relationship is so corp up!
To J- I won't give a single fcuk to it anymore.. Wanna be attitude then be it. I have enough of all your rubbish that you gave it to me. All your words is seriously GO FUCK YOURSELF! So many lies come out from your mouth! I really fucking disappointed in how you treat me now and before. lol..Fall for you previously is really a damn wrong thing! Ya people always say, hey RAchel, why you will fall for him sia? He don't even have the look and match your expectation. I answer: I love him not because of look but the heart. But i m totally fucking wrong about it. You want do what ever you want is non of my business anymore. I don't wanna care le. Just let you die in my heart and i will treat it like nothing happen before.BYE!
All i wanted is a peaceful life :(
Posted @ 8:01 PM
Saturday, October 29, 2011
WTF
I'm getting more and more tired each every and day. Quarrelling non stop does not help our relationship to get better. Maybe partly is my fault ba. I should not have tell him that i like him in the first place, and then we won't be together. We will only be Jie & Didi relationship. Things seem to get worse then i thought. He he getting more and more over sensitive over even just a minor stuff. Ya i agree that i'm also one of the sensitive type person. End up now both of us is suffering cause of this. I don't know what to do now. I have officially given up on Jamadi as i don't wish to talk about it anymore. My life seriously just SUCK! If let say, me and nigel have ended the relationship, i will just go chiong my career. I have enough of all this kind of relationship. This will properly be my last relationship.
At times i do admit, i do think of J. Will be wondering what he doing and how can he be so heartless and beening so cold towards mi. Now then i slowly know that is because there is no more love in it. He don't love me anymore and he have start to change alot. Becoming more and more flirt. More and more girls is surrounding him now. And i don't wanna give a damn to it anymore. I'm trying to tell myself not to think about past things anymore. What ever stuff that happen in the past, i must try to let it go and welcome the future. I won't know what will happen in the future, as i cannot predict it.
Today work seriously is suck TO THE CORE! Is not my day. Feeling felt so suck about it. Why do customer always so FUCK UP!!! As if they own the SHOP LIKE THAT!! we are also human being. There always a saying that "Customer is always right" Which always make me things is not a right things. Feeling so fair up when ever they scold and shout at us where by i can't even talk back them! SO PISSED! So what if you are a company BIG BOSS!!! What is so good about that IPHONE 4S? ._. Not much different also, other then the camera 8 MP? ._. Faster by abit? But battery does not even work well.. =.='''
I'm beening tagging heart over at his house. During the night always so scary ._. But i'm FCUKING happy cause our ring have gone up to EGGYOLK RING HEE ^_^ But i left 2800plus heart need to tag OMG!!! Which will really make me wanna die >.< :( T.T Tagging is seriously a tiring stuff! My TP is coming again on 8 NOV 2011 ._. Second try, and i m FCUKING SCARED LARZ!! T.T If i fail it again how? Just like starting within 5minutes i IMMEDIATE FAILURE cause mount kerb ._. All is my fcuking S course hai de :( Izzit really so hard just to get a license? i already spend more then 1k over for driving lesson ar :( I wanted a car and that will be Suzuki Swift if possible? or Lancer? Haiz, With my standard i don't know when then i can really ready to get a car?
Posted @ 7:22 PM
Sunday, October 23, 2011
DUNNO
Yesterday went to do ring with baby. I don't know why i only felt abit happy over it. When i realise i need to take out the ring of me and jamadi one, i felt so heartbreak. WHY? :( I still can't put down the past. I still need him alot. Honestly where ever i go, he is always appearing in my mind :( Why can't i just let go of my past and look forward ar? If we haven break up, today will be our 1yrs & 2months Anniversary :(
I don't know what to do, leave me alone :( T.T
Posted @ 7:18 PM
Monday, October 17, 2011
WALAU
I feeling so stressed up ._.Yesterday, i saw when to saw him so xin ku i really damn heart pain. He is sick which i can't do anything. T.T.
But i fetl very happy to see him, he still the same as before so easily sleepy haa..
I wanna go for a HOLIDAY BREAK PLEASE!!! T.T
Posted @ 7:14 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2011
SICK OF IT!
I'm wondering why m i feeling so stress up this few days. Everything doesn't go smoothly. I been having headache recently, also don't know due to what reason. Been chionging hearts in audition. Tag till so tired, ._.''' Yesterday i just get to know that, Desmond Wedding Dinner is holding at Boon lay side there. When i saw the message, i stone for a few second which i have no idea of why. But over all, i think and think then i realise i actually totally no feeling towards him which make me happier. Even though i hate it for what ever things that happen in the past between me and him. But i feel happy for him as he finally married LOL! Sometimes i will be at there wondering when then will be my turn? Wearing the wedding grown, happily walking around with it and taking Wedding Photos. But when you actually think back, is not a good thing to get married when i still so young haaa >.<
Sometimes, i been thinking izzit really too rush for me to go in another relationship. People always say both of us matching. But problem lies on we both have a fucking ATTITUDE problem ar. He is like being too over sensitive and jealousy too strong ._. I'm nethier perfect but better then him by abit? But basic attitude we can really compare, one quarrel everything can just burst like that. Yesterday he went to check my laptop which i left it at his house when i go to work. He went to my msn chat box and web cam history. End up taking things out and quarrel with me. I m so pissed about it. Did i really go check your msn chat box anot? WTF sia seriously! I only slept for 4hours and so tired still need to work yet you still want find fault with me. I really wonders are we really mean to be together? I don't know. I m just feel sick and tired of everyday quarrelling and beening control.
I admit that i still have a deep feeling towards my ex. When he start to attitude me in message, I felt so heart pain. Without checking his message first and attitude me which break my heart. Honestly speaking I miss him :( T.T
Posted @ 2:26 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2011
I feel
I been having big appetite last week which make me eat two bowl of rice and a bowl of soup. But don't know why, today i can't finish my chinese mix rice. When i see the food, then no appetite le. Also very tired due to yesterday only have abit of sleep time as in 4 hours? LOL! Now eyes is like itchy fcuk ._. I also felt so sorry cause i can't go club with cassy today as i m over tired ar. No feel to go down powerhouse also -_-''' I wanted to go but just scare later tomorrow i cannot wake up go work how? Haiz :( Life is being so unfair. I also don't have any fcuking idea that what m i thinking about? It make me feel so stressed up.
Does my relationship really last till forever? I m so sick of being control and quarrel everyday. Even now go out also need permission WTF! -_-''' Ya i admit, i do love my previous life more as there is more freedom :( But there no care :( HAIZ!!!
Posted @ 5:03 PM
Monday, October 31, 2011
Feeling so cold
Today weather is damn cold ar x.x Angry die cause today went for lunch and is RAINING!!! Thought take umbrella over to Domino pizza then end up no rain ._. But consider God still quite dote me ar LOL!! >.< On saturday nitex was so damn busy due to the tutu iphone 4s ar.. After a tiring day, baby came down which jack and alabu. Thought only they two, end up another two more come down which i don't even know is who. =.=...While eating porridge at baby daddy shop, he still can take out facebook stuff and quarrel with me. Is like WTF can! It seriously spoilt my day. Quarrel till he say i don't give him respect lol..Seriously speaking, i admit that i don't respect him as my attitude is like that and towards boyfriend my attitude more suck! I don't know how to tell him. Cause if i tell him, i want my freedom then is no care at all! totally suck. Why does i first time felt that relationship is so corp up!
To J- I won't give a single fcuk to it anymore.. Wanna be attitude then be it. I have enough of all your rubbish that you gave it to me. All your words is seriously GO FUCK YOURSELF! So many lies come out from your mouth! I really fucking disappointed in how you treat me now and before. lol..Fall for you previously is really a damn wrong thing! Ya people always say, hey RAchel, why you will fall for him sia? He don't even have the look and match your expectation. I answer: I love him not because of look but the heart. But i m totally fucking wrong about it. You want do what ever you want is non of my business anymore. I don't wanna care le. Just let you die in my heart and i will treat it like nothing happen before.BYE!
All i wanted is a peaceful life :(
Posted @ 8:01 PM
Saturday, October 29, 2011
WTF
I'm getting more and more tired each every and day. Quarrelling non stop does not help our relationship to get better. Maybe partly is my fault ba. I should not have tell him that i like him in the first place, and then we won't be together. We will only be Jie & Didi relationship. Things seem to get worse then i thought. He he getting more and more over sensitive over even just a minor stuff. Ya i agree that i'm also one of the sensitive type person. End up now both of us is suffering cause of this. I don't know what to do now. I have officially given up on Jamadi as i don't wish to talk about it anymore. My life seriously just SUCK! If let say, me and nigel have ended the relationship, i will just go chiong my career. I have enough of all this kind of relationship. This will properly be my last relationship.
At times i do admit, i do think of J. Will be wondering what he doing and how can he be so heartless and beening so cold towards mi. Now then i slowly know that is because there is no more love in it. He don't love me anymore and he have start to change alot. Becoming more and more flirt. More and more girls is surrounding him now. And i don't wanna give a damn to it anymore. I'm trying to tell myself not to think about past things anymore. What ever stuff that happen in the past, i must try to let it go and welcome the future. I won't know what will happen in the future, as i cannot predict it.
Today work seriously is suck TO THE CORE! Is not my day. Feeling felt so suck about it. Why do customer always so FUCK UP!!! As if they own the SHOP LIKE THAT!! we are also human being. There always a saying that "Customer is always right" Which always make me things is not a right things. Feeling so fair up when ever they scold and shout at us where by i can't even talk back them! SO PISSED! So what if you are a company BIG BOSS!!! What is so good about that IPHONE 4S? ._. Not much different also, other then the camera 8 MP? ._. Faster by abit? But battery does not even work well.. =.='''
I'm beening tagging heart over at his house. During the night always so scary ._. But i'm FCUKING happy cause our ring have gone up to EGGYOLK RING HEE ^_^ But i left 2800plus heart need to tag OMG!!! Which will really make me wanna die >.< :( T.T Tagging is seriously a tiring stuff! My TP is coming again on 8 NOV 2011 ._. Second try, and i m FCUKING SCARED LARZ!! T.T If i fail it again how? Just like starting within 5minutes i IMMEDIATE FAILURE cause mount kerb ._. All is my fcuking S course hai de :( Izzit really so hard just to get a license? i already spend more then 1k over for driving lesson ar :( I wanted a car and that will be Suzuki Swift if possible? or Lancer? Haiz, With my standard i don't know when then i can really ready to get a car?
Posted @ 7:22 PM
Sunday, October 23, 2011
DUNNO
Yesterday went to do ring with baby. I don't know why i only felt abit happy over it. When i realise i need to take out the ring of me and jamadi one, i felt so heartbreak. WHY? :( I still can't put down the past. I still need him alot. Honestly where ever i go, he is always appearing in my mind :( Why can't i just let go of my past and look forward ar? If we haven break up, today will be our 1yrs & 2months Anniversary :(
I don't know what to do, leave me alone :( T.T
Posted @ 7:18 PM
Monday, October 17, 2011
WALAU
I feeling so stressed up ._.Yesterday, i saw when to saw him so xin ku i really damn heart pain. He is sick which i can't do anything. T.T.
But i fetl very happy to see him, he still the same as before so easily sleepy haa..
I wanna go for a HOLIDAY BREAK PLEASE!!! T.T
Posted @ 7:14 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2011
SICK OF IT!
I'm wondering why m i feeling so stress up this few days. Everything doesn't go smoothly. I been having headache recently, also don't know due to what reason. Been chionging hearts in audition. Tag till so tired, ._.''' Yesterday i just get to know that, Desmond Wedding Dinner is holding at Boon lay side there. When i saw the message, i stone for a few second which i have no idea of why. But over all, i think and think then i realise i actually totally no feeling towards him which make me happier. Even though i hate it for what ever things that happen in the past between me and him. But i feel happy for him as he finally married LOL! Sometimes i will be at there wondering when then will be my turn? Wearing the wedding grown, happily walking around with it and taking Wedding Photos. But when you actually think back, is not a good thing to get married when i still so young haaa >.<
Sometimes, i been thinking izzit really too rush for me to go in another relationship. People always say both of us matching. But problem lies on we both have a fucking ATTITUDE problem ar. He is like being too over sensitive and jealousy too strong ._. I'm nethier perfect but better then him by abit? But basic attitude we can really compare, one quarrel everything can just burst like that. Yesterday he went to check my laptop which i left it at his house when i go to work. He went to my msn chat box and web cam history. End up taking things out and quarrel with me. I m so pissed about it. Did i really go check your msn chat box anot? WTF sia seriously! I only slept for 4hours and so tired still need to work yet you still want find fault with me. I really wonders are we really mean to be together? I don't know. I m just feel sick and tired of everyday quarrelling and beening control.
I admit that i still have a deep feeling towards my ex. When he start to attitude me in message, I felt so heart pain. Without checking his message first and attitude me which break my heart. Honestly speaking I miss him :( T.T
Posted @ 2:26 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2011
I feel
I been having big appetite last week which make me eat two bowl of rice and a bowl of soup. But don't know why, today i can't finish my chinese mix rice. When i see the food, then no appetite le. Also very tired due to yesterday only have abit of sleep time as in 4 hours? LOL! Now eyes is like itchy fcuk ._. I also felt so sorry cause i can't go club with cassy today as i m over tired ar. No feel to go down powerhouse also -_-''' I wanted to go but just scare later tomorrow i cannot wake up go work how? Haiz :( Life is being so unfair. I also don't have any fcuking idea that what m i thinking about? It make me feel so stressed up.
Does my relationship really last till forever? I m so sick of being control and quarrel everyday. Even now go out also need permission WTF! -_-''' Ya i admit, i do love my previous life more as there is more freedom :( But there no care :( HAIZ!!!
Posted @ 5:03 PM
